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7/18/25: The blog is finnally finished ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ ). If you're new, the blog posts read oldest to newest. My photos are posted bleow, and below that is my favorite playlist! Currently coding my roller derby page.

7/19/25 Dream-log: In my dream I was in a old masters animation class. I was being starved and beaten like a dog to make art alongside the other students. I could see myself out of body, much like a ghost. Watching myself progressively decay, eventually becoming a living corpse. The sleeping qaurters had a dusty sand flooring that blew into your face whenever it got windy; The qaurters also had a tall (brick?) gladiator ring wall with a singular cot. Most of the dream was running in the ring trying to find a sleeping spot. Which was hard, I had to avoid fights with the other animators. We were all tired so a good sleeping spot was worth a brawl.

The class was rewarded one day with a D*sney cruise. The most memerable part of the dream was meeting Girl. I know she had a name, though i've forgotten it. To describe her: she had a sculpted, athletic body under an off-the-shoulder Led Zeppelin shirt and baggy, sun-bleached pants; sand-colored blond hair with brown roots; a pearly smile with braces; smudged eyeliner and clumpy spider mascara; a button nose; and freckles. Girl and I quickly had become friends. Evnteually she dragged me by her hand, I was going to have a sleep over. Girl brought me to her "favorite" bench. We sat, she then showed me a picture of her cuddling a dead body, it horrifed me.

Girl then tells me how her best friend had a overdose "I didn't want them to take her." going in depth how Girl couldn't let Friend go. Like a movie was playing I watched as she just cuddled the body; showing it tiktoks and treating it like a living person. Progresively it had gotten bloated and eventually it got so rancid Girl burried friend under a garden bench. She happily kept showing me pictures of the body and I couldn't look away, I felt so sick. Yellow pin sized maggots crawling inside of Friend's rotting face flaps while Girl does millenial type selfie poses. Then the next thing is Girl trying to convince me into killing myself while at a mall. Or bullying me very poorly into doing it. Girl would igrnore me infront of some other girls and telling me that "you cant wear that because I want to" everytime I found a outfit I liked. I try to run away but I keep running into her door. I then woke up.

7/19/25: Got up this morning with a shower. I feel very nice in clean. Im not hungry which is strange, I wanna bulk up for my next Roller Derby game in a month but i've gotten super picky with my eating. I finished my dream log while my mom plays her video game. Im gonna code more of my site and hopefully feel motivated enough to draw for my first game!